One eternal round

I spoke too soon. I reached out for the beautiful bubble in front of me, tried to hold onto it, and it popped. But it was mutual, and I see now what I couldn’t see before: that it really wasn’t meant to be. Pulling the plug was the right thing to do. (Besides, when the Lord has plans, it’s better not to try to stop them. :)) Endings are bittersweet, aren’t they. But it’s in them that we find new beginnings, almost like a phoenix.

In spite of this derailment, most of what I said two days ago still holds — I’ve been changed (for the better), and even though I’m not going down the same path I thought I was going down a few days ago, I don’t regret any of it. I’ve learned a lot. Heavens, I’ve learned a lot. Rollercoasters do have their ups and downs, but that’s okay if they actually get you somewhere. And this one is definitely getting me somewhere. (If only I knew how long the journey would be… ~wistful sigh~)

My favorite lyrics from Beauty and the Beast:

“Bitter sweet and strange, finding you can change, learning you were wrong…”

Your posts, vague as they were, made me think of that song.

Ben,

I am sorry for your disappointment. Sometimes looking beyond the moment can be a sad business. Consider the memory of a special day spent with a loved one. What if your loved one died unexpectedly the next day? How would your memory be altered if you had known of their pending demise while you were spending the day with them? Perhaps you would have chosen to spend those moments differently, but your day would have been different, sad, longing, melancholy.

Perhaps the veil that covers our future is a loving gift from God just like the veil that covers our past. If I had to climb ten thousand stairs, I would prefer my view of the journey to come in ten stair increments. Having multiple finish lines in the journey of life allows us to rest, to create memories and celebrate life’s victories along the way.

I hope that you enjoy discovering Ben. I’m sure that God’s version of Ben is much grander than your version of Ben. Relish the journey and make some wonderful memories along the way. All blessings will come in the due time of the Lord if you are willing to work for them, remain worthy of them and accept them.

All blessings will come in the due time of the Lord if you are willing to work for them, remain worthy of them and accept them.

Well said, Janet. As much as I disliked the “in the due time of the Lord” mantra as a single guy, it was (and is!) nevertheless true.

Lindsey: I love those lyrics! Amen a hundredfold over.

Janet: All is well, all is well. Not necessarily in the way I expected, but in a way that’s right and good and what I need right now.

Connor: Yeah, I feel the same way you did. :) But patience is a virtue… ~sigh~