This postI’ve been posting a lot lately. While NaBloPoMo is why I haven’t missed a day this month, there’ve been several days with more than one post (like today), and I just realized why: I’m avoiding working on my novel. Blogging is easy writing, but fiction is hard — dang hard — and so I try to procrastinate it for as long as possible. I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve careened to the edge of giving up, looked down over it, and then found my resolve and returned to safety.
And so here I am filling up your blog reader. :) (Those of you who subscribe via e-mail are luckier in that regard, since you just get a longer e-mail instead of one for each post.) But don’t worry, I already wrote my 2,000 words today, finishing off Chapter Five. (I was going to write this post before I put in my time, but that seemed just a little too to-the-point. :P)
I’ve really got to start doing my writing in the morning instead of last thing of the day, because fatigue is a hard enemy to overcome. And I have the time in the morning, just waiting there for me. We’ll see. At any rate, I’m almost a quarter of the way through this novel (23%, to be precise), which has never, ever happened before. It’s exhilarating in one way and utterly, terrifyingly frightening in another. I’ve never written the middle of a novel before. I don’t know how to get to the end. But who cares? All I have to do is write 2,000 words a day until the end of the month, and after I finish I can pick up all the pieces and try to work them into a coherent story, one with a proper beginning, middle, and end. But for now I’m all about the quota. (The scary thing is that the story is actually turning out better than the sludge it ought to be. And so my expectations for it are rising, but I must keep them down, keep them low. For now.)
And I promise I’ll try to write some non-NaNoWriMo posts this month, too. :P
